04 Aug Some Thoughts
Life is tricky. Just when I feel like I have things under control, a massive wave comes and knocks me off track. On one hand, I feel as if I know what I am doing and feel like I am doing my best, but at the same time, there is a force and a thought that is telling me that I am not doing enough.
I know materialistic things are not everything. They are just part of THIS world and for that reason, I need to care. I want to have nice things and not worry about if or where we can go out to eat. I want to provide for my family in a way that gives them the freedom to not worry about anything.
In a perfect world, I just want to worry about my family. I just want to make them happy and get their approval. Now that I have a child and he is about to be a year old, I am starting to think about how he will see me when he gets older. Will I be a washed out dad or a father figure that has provided for him and has given him the love and support he needed.
I don’t know.